Well, Tyler & I see a therapist occasionally because we have issues. I'm sure all parents go through this sort of thing with a child or two - and it helps. I don't care if it's normal or not - for us - seeing a therapist helps. One of the things we have discussed over a number of visits (in regards to myself) is the fact that I have a terrible memory. THAT is the reason I take so many pictures and scrap. It's proof, evidence, that I was a good mom and we did things and we had fun. Pictures may not always trigger memories with me but at least I have proof that I was there and we did that! But, there are things for which a picture can't help. That poses a problem when trying to deal with 3 boys arguing and saying, "but you said . . . " and "last time . . . " - etc. It's part of the reason I'm so inconsistent. Anyway, another thing I've brought up is that I can't find the right words to express what I mean. Nothing comes out clearly. It's why I will avoid a confrontation at all possible costs. I'll stand and stutter or mumble things that make no sense. I did tell him that I can sit at the computer and type exactly what I mean. I said that I think faster than I talk and that's part of my problem when dealing with confrontational issues, either with my kids or other folks. But, I can type - REALLY fast!
You wanna know what he told me?????? He said, "That's the ADD." I'm like, "whaaaaaaat?????" LOL! Halleluja! I've said it for YEARS! If it had been as widely known when I was a kid - I'd have been on meds and my life would probably be very different - all good (w/ the execption I might have finished college the first time around and never have met Sky).
So, I would LOVE to be REally tested! And, YES. I'd love to try some meds. I think it'd be neat to feel what a normal person feels like for a change - to have the organization of thought and say what you mean the first time around. Oh - so many things I think of that I could do better if I had a clear head. :)
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